Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in addic04's LiveJournal:

Saturday, December 18th, 2004
7:15 pm	KissmasBash Aftermath Oh my hat, today was so long and pointless really..lol..last night was KissmaBash, it was fun even though they only had one good band Sipmle Plan, although there were a couple more i still liked. But yea I get home at 1:15 then went to bed at like 2:15 and had to get my ass outta bed at like 5:45 to go to work! So i was working on a total of 3 1/2hrs of sleep..lol..i've done that before but that was on senior trip, and i got 2 hrs of sleep, but i was in Flordia so i didnt give a shit, i got to lay in the sun for 3hrs while everyone else slept i'd do that all over again BUT work is completely different, stupid people, stupid questions, stupid shit.. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Simple Plan (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
11:55 pm	BEST POEM EVER! READ IT! Somewhere between the *Procrastination* and the homework..and the incessant forwards and the friendships and the calls to each other COMPLAINING about <3*!CRUSHES!*<3!! Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends and the "I miss you's", "I LOVE YOU's" and the "what are we doing tonight's?" And somewhere between all the changing and the GROWING...somehwere between the classes and the -Skipping Classes-..and the studying for test :P...and the pretending to study for tests :)...and the downright NOT STUDYING for test :D..I forgot--I forgot what school was all about. Somewhere between all the appointments and EXPRESSO COFFEES, and the mountain dews!..Paying bills and then not paying bills...making plans then breaking plans..appearing, disappearing and then reappearing...I forgot--I forgot what it was like to CRY! :'( I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't MAKE you happy..And pretending to be smart doesn't MAKE you smart..I forgot that you CAN'T forgot the past in fear of the ~FuTuRe~..I forgot that you CAN'T control falling in <3 LOVE <3! And you CAN'T make yourself fall in <3 LOVE <3..I learned that I CAN LOVE..I learned that its ok to MESS UP!..And its *okay* to ask for HELP! And its ok to feel like CRAP, and I learned its okay to complain and whine to all your FRIENDS for a whole day! I learned that sometimes the things you want MOST, you just can't have. I learned the GREATEST thing about high school and COLLEGE! and the working world isn't the ***PARTIES!*** or the ***DRINKING*** or the ***HOOKUPS***..It's the friendships! which means taking chances. I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the thing we need MOST to TALK about..I learned that time can HEAL all things...I learned that when you think things can't possibly get any WORSE, IT DOES! But with the <3 LOVE <3 and SUPPORT of friends, YOU'LL SURVIVE!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH, I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'D BE WITHOUT YOU. YOU MAY NOT KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME, BUT TRUST ME ITS ALOT! Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Smallest Violin in the World!..lol (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
4:18 pm	Catch up with my life in the past 2 weeks... Yea seriously my life is lame but its mine so I gotta deal with it. So past 2 weeks in my life before i really start using this thing, school and work, i know exactly what your thinking! School is driving me crazy i need to get out and have this winter break, all i wanna do is relax, go out with friends and maybe party, no one ever throws one..or they dont INVITE ME (Jess!!)...and work sucks, i hate christmas cause it means 6-12 hr days I dont like that! Yea anyways, 2 weeks ago i got into a fight with my mom, lost some respect for her cause she was calling me a snot, that i think my shit dont stink, i think everyone is stupid, i'm always right..waa waa waa, she was being a bitch that weekend and unfortunately she picked the bad topics to nag about and now i talk to her even less than before..makes my life easier, less lieing. That was all over Liz too, thanks liz! Just kidding, it was my choice not to call then break curfew, but i'm 18 in college, she knew where i was, she needs to let go alil bit! So after that i was like i'm just gonna wait til winter break to do anything else, concentrate on school and the research project due in english on mon (which i bullshitted through and probably deserve a B but the asshole will give me a D cause he hates me, which is fine cause I HATE HIM) SO GLAD I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL THIS WEEK! But ok onward..then last week, i was chatting with my friend ry online when i look at his profile for myspace..best website ever..lol..but so i decided to do a profile on myspace then, that was monday. tuesday i met Will on there, so cool talking with him and hearing his stories, lol..but then he said he was going downtown fri and invited me, so i was like shit, what am i gonna tell my mom so i can go, especial that late after curfew and downtown..but when i told her she was like o thats nice have fun! Wow the was so easy, i just said i was going downtown with friends from school, so i lied alil not really too bad! So wed-fri i'm feeling so sick, i dunno whether it was from lack or sleep, stress, anticipation whatever, fri night i have to take a nap before i go so i'm well rested, which didnt prove necessary. So i'm headed downtown get lost down some road, turned around down a one way road! yea i'm that smart! then i park like a block and half away from the club so i have to walk there, get lost again, But i did find out where i had that great pizza the one day, Prima Pizza! God i'm gonna be a regular...but anyways i get the club..Club Marcellas and wow it was outta control for me, way outta my environment. I didnt dance, which i probably should have done but the music was making my ear drums bleed and then this guy just starts talking to me, dunno his name at all couldnt hear a word he said and then then he kissed me on the cheek i was like whoa, never had a stranger come within 1ft of my face before so i got alil nervous..so i need to find the bathrooms, which of course are not labeled! (and i found out later that I shouldnt have gone in alone anyways, silly me i like to be alone in the bathroom!) lol..yea but i got into the guys after watching a guy come outta the door, and i was talking to ry on my cell when these "women" walk in, not sure if they really were women, i just knew i had to leave after that, so i ditched Will and his friends, which i felt like a total jackass about and left for home, feeling LAME. Then i had to get up for work and had 10 hrs to think about what i did, thinkin man i'll never go downtown again! But i was a club VIRGIN, i didnt know what to expect and through all my experience i should know that your first time sucks! no matter what it is, except bartending, Thats a fuckin blast!! So Will you took my virginity! lol..joking Yea so now i want to go downtown again, but this time less sober..lol..which means i need a DD so sign up will be on fri of each week!..lol joking, but if you want to be my DD then fine, i know its gonna be hard to get one, everyone i know who goes downtown wont be responsible enough not to drink and those who are responsible wont go downtown! But anyways these past few days have dragged on, back at school nothing to look forward to, not like last week..lol..even during school there was something to look forward to, Liz shadowed me, which was fun for me! i needed someone there i could talk to, then we went out to chilis afterwards, which i also needed, i was malnuritished from the past 4 days..that was a rough week 15 hrs of sleep total and 2 good meals! But today was great, so i'm driving home from school, just took my last bio test til the final, when the edge is like 13th caller wins double order of chicken wings from flappy's and registers to win a guitar signed by Jet..Can you guess who the 13th caller was!? ME, i was like omg, o shit..the o shit part was cause a cop just drove by..lol..but i have to listen from 8-8:30 tomorrow morning to listen for my name..which means i'm skipping my first class Calculus WHO NEEDS IT?!..lol..exciting drive home! I also gotta think of stuff to do with people i made so many outting promises with people coming back from college and stuff i dunno what to do..eh i'll worry about that LATER! Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Ryan Cabrara_On the Way Down (2 Comments |Comment on this)